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Forever I looked to the future
Looking forward, looking past, looking to see
All I needed was to look here
Have you looked here?
Have you looked up?
Have you looked down?
Have you looked today?
Have you seen the love in the moment?
Will you look now to see the perfection in now?
The state of being a mother.
Dictionary.com
Ah, it is is thankfully so much more than that dear dictionary.com
Motherhood is the village grown larger with each light born anew. We find not only the child in the light; but all the smiles and hearts warmed by the softest touch, a toothless smile, a belly giggle. From the moment the light is born, our village grows with each day, through teachers, coaches, friends, aunts, uncles, grandparents, coworkers and the passerby who smiles on our wild days.
It is true, the light dims somedays with loss, heartbreak, exhaustion, or fear,
but on this day, may we each take a breath and let our hearts shine again.
For the mothers around you to whom you are child or village, be your brightest light of love and heart. Let the world be filled with kindness and compassion. May your own light be true, so that it may smile upon the motherhood around you.
May your day be heartfull, let the moon guide you to the stars…
I was asked that question recently as part of an interview: “what is your greatest mistake”?
In the past I could have told you a hundred mistakes I had made. Everything I did I judged, nothing was ever “perfect”. It was all part of my library of how I was not enough.
But on this day, I had no answer. All those actions, words, stumbles, tears, laughs and paths of my past brought me here.
What to say in response then?
My journey is no mistake.
The truth is, I am here to be me and there is no mistake in that truth. Any mistake someone finds in me is simply a perception in time and I hope we can all learn to see those moments as opportunities to learn from each other.
My hope for our future
The question I hope we start asking: What is your greatest purpose?
May we not force each other to look at our pasts with the lens of judgement. May we instead ask each other how we are showing up today.
In the interviews today I want to know, why do you want to be here, with us, on this team?
Tell me who you are and your vision, let’s dream of what we can become when we work together.
May the hope of spring bring you joy upon reading, upon looking, upon feeling the beauty coming in each moment
LM – I want to wear my princess dress.
Me – OK Hon, go get it.
LM – I not HON…goes to get her dress.
Me – she is so HON
LM – MAMA – I READY
Me – Oh darlin, you are amazing
And I sit back and smile with my little HON in all her wild, glory.
Our adult rules, made to keep order in a world with it’s own frequency, it’s own order, an order of which we comprehend so little. We can control the world as much as we can control the imagination of our children. Though we have tried, is the better quest instead to celebrate and love?
Rather than control our day, each other, our happenings; I hope we can find ourselves and celebrate the beauty in the sunrise, the smile in each other, the joy in each moment.
Rather than feeling out of control, maybe we use that feeling as a reminder to put on our favorite anything, grab a smile, a best friend and be wild.
For we are only out of control, when we try to control.
For anyone not yet familiar with our HON roots: http://honfest.net/.
Be well my dears, live heartfull and dance in the light.
We ask of their dreams
What do you want to be when
Ask now what they want
I could ask what he wants to be when he wants to for up. Instead I ask, what do you want to do to change the world. I ask how, what makes you happy, what do you want to share with the world.
The same goes for each of us. How do we want to live? What do we want to share with the world?
The middle
The unseen
The low risk
The hidden
The safe
I have lived in the middle. I have loved to fit the mold. I have loved to calm the waters. I have lived to keep the peace. I have hidden me, for what I thought you needed.
I see now
You wanted to see me
I want to be me
When I let go of what I think you want
When I embrace who I am
When I am me
We are we
The middle
The unseen
The low risk
The hidden
The safe
I have lived in the middle. I have loved to fit the mold. I have loved to calm the waters. I have lived to keep the peace. I have hidden me, for what I thought you needed.
I see now
You wanted to see me
I want to be me
When I let go of what I think you want
When I embrace who I am
When I am me
We are we
The clock ticks, night darkness calms, sleepy eyes rest upon the fading night sky
Time everlasting, cool air surrounds, warming coffee promises float through the air
The cycle continues, stars shine bright, the morning comes to shine through the day
Until tonight, my dear night sky
I have not set a resolution in enough years that I cannot remember my last resolution. This year however, fueled by yoga and ayurvedic studies, I have worked to set an intention. For me, balance is the much needed gift I need to give to myself.
As I started to think about what balance really meant though, I felt the nagging hurt. That fear and hurt that focusing on balance was just going to leave me feeling couldn’t get it all done, and of course that I was failing everything rather than thriving and anything. That thought hit me hard as a simple self made up lie and set in motion a commitment to balance.
Balance is the joy of self internal and external connections, the happiness felt by overall peace.
With fair confidence in my own thoughts and words, I was further encouraged this morning by a TED talk recommended to me by the fabulous self propelling filters and coding of the TED app. If you are looking to really be joyous in your own self, I hope you will follow the link to the talk.
Embrace your raw, strange magic – Casey Gerald: https://www.ted.com/talks/casey_gerald_embrace_your_raw_strange_magic?rid=rs0B8PCM3rTN
After the morning drive inspiration and affirmation that balance is my perfect intention I set off to work for the first time after holiday. It was a great day between work and having a tea party with my favorite little girl while dinner cooked. Followed by some awesome snuggles with my little man (photo not included).
Then I let my balance shift. I decided to check my email after dinner and realized I missed a meeting that had been scheduled, and that I knew about, during kid pickup. It was one of those meetings that 30+ people were invited to attend, only a handful would participate and really my participation was not needed since I work with an amazing team. Yet, I found myself disappointed that I forgot about the meeting and then, the TED talk from the morning drive floated like the awakening smell of a strongly brewed coffee on a cold winter morning.
My best balance act of the day was gifted to me from the stars and my forgetful memory. My best act was choosing what was right for me, and in doing so my teammates are trusted and my family is loved.
I worked today along with my team and I happily played with my children who were reminded again that mama hopes for a world where our choice is always connection and love.
To the teams that support me every day at home and at work, to the star gazers who dream with me for a happy and healthy world – thank you for granting me this gift today.
Heart Full 