Let us be wild

LM – I want to wear my princess dress.
Me – OK Hon, go get it.
LM – I not HON…goes to get her dress.
Me – she is so HON
LM – MAMA – I READY
Me – Oh darlin, you are amazing

And I sit back and smile with my little HON in all her wild, glory.

My HON – Tiara, kitty, sunglasses, princess dress and all; I am reminded how life is much simpler than we make it out to be each day.

Our adult rules, made to keep order in a world with it’s own frequency, it’s own order, an order of which we comprehend so little. We can control the world as much as we can control the imagination of our children. Though we have tried, is the better quest instead to celebrate and love?

Rather than control our day, each other, our happenings; I hope we can find ourselves and celebrate the beauty in the sunrise, the smile in each other, the joy in each moment.

Rather than feeling out of control, maybe we use that feeling as a reminder to put on our favorite anything, grab a smile, a best friend and be wild.

For we are only out of control, when we try to control.

For anyone not yet familiar with our HON roots: http://honfest.net/.

Be well my dears, live heartfull and dance in the light.

Dream big

We ask of their dreams

What do you want to be when

Ask now what they want

I could ask what he wants to be when he wants to for up. Instead I ask, what do you want to do to change the world. I ask how, what makes you happy, what do you want to share with the world.

The same goes for each of us. How do we want to live? What do we want to share with the world?

The middle ground

The middle

The unseen

The low risk

The hidden

The safe

I have lived in the middle. I have loved to fit the mold. I have loved to calm the waters. I have lived to keep the peace. I have hidden me, for what I thought you needed.

I see now

You wanted to see me

I want to be me

When I let go of what I think you want

When I embrace who I am

When I am me

We are we

Happiness in our life adventures, may you always be you

The middle ground

The middle

The unseen

The low risk

The hidden

The safe

I have lived in the middle. I have loved to fit the mold. I have loved to calm the waters. I have lived to keep the peace. I have hidden me, for what I thought you needed.

I see now

You wanted to see me

I want to be me

When I let go of what I think you want

When I embrace who I am

When I am me

We are we

Happiness in our life adventures, may you always be you

Darkness

The clock ticks, night darkness calms, sleepy eyes rest upon the fading night sky

Time everlasting, cool air surrounds, warming coffee promises float through the air

The cycle continues, stars shine bright, the morning comes to shine through the day

Until tonight, my dear night sky

Balance

I have not set a resolution in enough years that I cannot remember my last resolution. This year however, fueled by yoga and ayurvedic studies, I have worked to set an intention. For me, balance is the much needed gift I need to give to myself.

As I started to think about what balance really meant though, I felt the nagging hurt. That fear and hurt that focusing on balance was just going to leave me feeling couldn’t get it all done, and of course that I was failing everything rather than thriving and anything. That thought hit me hard as a simple self made up lie and set in motion a commitment to balance.

Balance is the joy of self internal and external connections, the happiness felt by overall peace.

With fair confidence in my own thoughts and words, I was further encouraged this morning by a TED talk recommended to me by the fabulous self propelling filters and coding of the TED app. If you are looking to really be joyous in your own self, I hope you will follow the link to the talk.

Embrace your raw, strange magic – Casey Gerald: https://www.ted.com/talks/casey_gerald_embrace_your_raw_strange_magic?rid=rs0B8PCM3rTN

After the morning drive inspiration and affirmation that balance is my perfect intention I set off to work for the first time after holiday. It was a great day between work and having a tea party with my favorite little girl while dinner cooked. Followed by some awesome snuggles with my little man (photo not included).

with her favorite partner in crime

Then I let my balance shift. I decided to check my email after dinner and realized I missed a meeting that had been scheduled, and that I knew about, during kid pickup. It was one of those meetings that 30+ people were invited to attend, only a handful would participate and really my participation was not needed since I work with an amazing team. Yet, I found myself disappointed that I forgot about the meeting and then, the TED talk from the morning drive floated like the awakening smell of a strongly brewed coffee on a cold winter morning.

My best balance act of the day was gifted to me from the stars and my forgetful memory. My best act was choosing what was right for me, and in doing so my teammates are trusted and my family is loved.

I worked today along with my team and I happily played with my children who were reminded again that mama hopes for a world where our choice is always connection and love.

To the teams that support me every day at home and at work, to the star gazers who dream with me for a happy and healthy world – thank you for granting me this gift today.

I am as excited as my little man with a new snow tube in winter!

Presents

All the gifts are under the tree;

But still, I have one from me.

In the twinkle of each light,

I give to you my song so bright.

Sing it loud throughout the year,

To everyone, share my cheer.

With each note bring magic and joy,

A smile from much more than a toy.

For love and compassion is my gift you,

May it bless you this year through.

To all my loves, may this find you well and heartfull.

My thanksgiving- 2020

To my little ones

I fill my heart with light and love. I let it flow through me to grow, taking as little as possible.

So that you may know what the power of positivity brings.

It can be hard work; to cultivate, to connect, to be grounded, and to nourish where you find light and love.

Never shy away from that hard work.

That hard work is the only true work the world needs. The rest that we do, we do to fill time, hide our pains, to stay disconnected.

When you feel pain, disconnect, longing, call back to me, to your heart.

Call back to fill yourself with light and love…be heartfull.

To you my loves, I give my all …

Love

A short word, one syllable and just 4 letters. Yet we live for it, die for it, long for it, celebrate in it, fight in the name of it, smile in the grace of it.

After a wild month of growing the family, getting COVID-19 throughout the house, changing the family dynamic again, growing the family to include 2 more fur babies, laughing, resting, welcoming fall, being virtual, exploring, and creating I felt tired through it all. As we began to come out of our healing rest I knew it was time to write again, my mind was swimming with ideas but focus was elusive. So true to momma bear form, I turned to my little one for the eyes of innocence and simplicity.

I asked the simple question, curious of the creation that can come from his wild mind.

what do you think the world needs to hear?”

His answer was perfectly simple…love

And so it is, love had found its way to open my eyes and grow our hearts again

As we sat and enjoyed the view of a perfect afternoon, I thought of love and our love of family and friends. It seemed enough to write about and still I find the need to expand my view on love and I hope you will with me.

Love with heartfull includes the world in its big and small. Love of the 1, 2, 5, 1 thousand, 1 million, of the whole. Love is when we find the truth of ourselves and share that with empathy to all and in all.

With my heartfull, I looked at my day, at my mindset, at my relations and I knew I needed to be more me – True to myself.

Too often I find myself needing love

  • When I am short to react yet long to connect
  • When I multitask yet crave to focus
  • When I make the comfortable choice yet my dreams need nourishment
  • When I argue yet I need a hug
  • When I ignore and feel isolated

I have excuses that I just need more time, maybe next year, I need a little break, there is just too much. Well all those things are true but when I really think about it, I see that I already have everything I need to love more and be more.

I have the time to give, I have the focus to share, I have the passion to drive and I have the dream to be heartfull.

When you find your passion it is like breathing, it is crucial, it is life and I want to live that way and hope you will as well.

What is it that is the “thing” for you?

My things are a list of things

  • Ending the creation of single use plastic
  • Bringing thought and love to education
  • Growing the focus and connection of yoga
  • Teaching purpose over ease

For each of these I commit to action. By committing to myself and my passion to share my love with the whole and live Heartfull.

How will you love Heartfull?